Badge of PRIDE

Warning* This Blog has a lot of Flashbacks

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In television more often than not you find yourself doing small budget shows, if you are among the lucky few then you will get to be a part of some big budget shows, for eg KBC, Survivor, Fear Factor, Bigg Boss etc. But most of us do a lot of small budget shows and earn our bread and butter by doing 3 to 4 such shows in a year, but what happens when you happen to work with a big production house on a big budget show, ur kind of thrown off balance with the comfort coz there are so many people and everyone has a designated role so no multi tasking, you turn into a specialist of sorts.

This is all hunky dory until the show comes to an end and you move back onto a smaller project, getting back into multitasking takes a while, coz by now ur spoilt ! Out of habit you yell out to the "spot dada".. only to jolt back into senses and realise there is no Spot dada.. Frustration sets in but then your phone rings with the IPL hooter as a ringtone and you are faced with reality head on.....you realise that with the IPL season ON ur lucky enough to even have a job so stop cribbing.
Times like these make me go into Flashback,

October 2008 to August 2009 in the city of Bath, England where I was working as a waiter and washer. Have had the experience of taking orders, making tables, relaying the breakfast buffet and at times even washing around 300 vessels a day, (if I may add,none of them were mine).

You come back to ground and realise that working on a small budget show or not having the perks of a big production is actually nothing and is all in the mind. The fact that once a year you work on a big budget show should be treated as a luxury and not a necessity.

I still remember the time when quite ironically on Independence day, i.e. ; 15th August, I was working as a waiter in England and taking orders from the Brits (not that they were cruel or bad to me, on the contrary were very nice) ....but it just felt weird !!

I still have my name badge of the Hotel I was working in, it is called Barcelo Premium's Combe Grove Manor. I have now decided to wear this badge as a symbol of pride on my sleeve so that whenever I get complacent I have something to look at, something that reminds me of what I have done and hence any task at hand is smaller in comparison. Spot or No SPOT,Budget or No Budget, it is the love for shooting that got me into this, I remember shooting college project films in 2500Rs....time to FALL IN LOVE......all over AGAIN !

LIGHTS, CAMERA, ACTION !!!

Food for Thought

Not a Blog - Just a thought I came across, wanted to share it !!

Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something. They're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take.

Unposted Letters

As I shamelessly copy the title of my Blog from this book I am currently reading by T.T.Ranga rajan that I realise that I have been quite shameless (read selfish) over the last many months even in my life.

So is it bad to be Selfish ?? To think about your own self ? To do what you, your mind, your body or your heart pleases ????

Quite honestly, I don't see the problem ! But the problem arises when you start involving other people in your selfish pursuits, especially if they are not on the same page. So yes now coming to the point,

I AM GUILTY

Have wronged quite a few people and I am apologetic about that,about the hurt; at times intentional but mostly unintentional. But not for one moment do I regret the experiences and the learnings these experience brought me, some made me smile, some made me laugh, some even made me scared and yes a couple of them even made me cry.

The road to self discovery is the most difficult, the inner turmoil just never stops.....as I have realised ! At times I decided to make it tougher for myself by taking the road less travelled, now I am back on the track that I know more off coz this is where I want to be. The phase of " Phases" is over.

The Light is in Sight !!!

Creative Calling

I belong to a Creative Field, being in television we often get a chance to escape into this world that we create for the millions of viewers who watch it on air. But believe me there is no greater high than watching your hardwork, at times even your sweat and Blood, quite literally; being translated into television air time. All that the viewer gets to see is 42minutes of a show but we know that it has actually at times taken over 40hours to produce those 42minutes of deliverable content.

So what drives each of us associated with this Insane Industry ?

• Is it that we dont like Sleep ?
• We dont love our families actually?
• Alcohol ?
• Glamour....? errr sorry did I say Glamour...ha ha
• LOVE..... hmmm

I actually think it is Love. Belonging to a creative field if you are not in Love then I strongly believe you cannot flourish, well atleast not flourish to your max. Love gives you the adrenaline pump that you need to survive these working hours, the ego clashes, the politics of it all.

You can be in Love with anyone, your friends, a girlfriend/s, a co worker, your boss, your show, your team or if your lucky then your job as a whole. But without Love it is kinda difficult.

So if you too want to find a method to this Madness then go ahead and fall in LOVE......It always works !!!!